Blissful disturbance
Its been really long that i felt disturbed. But last night things went vain ..!! For a peaceful state , we must be scrupulous for every action or rather every thought of ours. A single thought invoked can unveil all our hidden flaws resulting in fret and manifestly dissatisfaction. It often happens with me that the point i am stucked with is touched through anyone or from anywhere like it just happened today.
Its been really long that i felt disturbed. But last night things went vain ..!! For a peaceful state , we must be scrupulous for every action or rather every thought of ours. A single thought invoked can unveil all our hidden flaws resulting in fret and manifestly dissatisfaction. It often happens with me that the point i am stucked with is touched through anyone or from anywhere like it just happened today.
The disgruntled nature of mind in itself is suffering. No matter how much of something we get, it never satisfies our Desire for BETTER or MORE...!!! (Lord Budhha).
I have been gaining so many experiences of sorrow and discomfort through expectations but i considered all of them disparate.Till date, i thought that there are many points on which we can be in fret but now a gentleman cleared it all ;) . We, every human being revolves around just five things .. anger, greed, attachment, ego and sex.
And my very recent experience is of expectations whose root cause lies in my greed of getting more and more. I thought its something different from things that had happened with me before but it actually wasn’t. Your expectations come from your greed and desire for more. We can never get satisfied..!!
It was a time 2 years before that my present state was a dream to me and just the soul beauty what i wished to feel and live. But now when its there i want more.!! Sometimes it feels how ...are.... WE...!!!! Disgusting me .. demanding like a beggar !!!! if you yourself feel your actions so downgraded, what impact will it have on the other.
But the recent precarious state of mine snapped all shit in me. I realised that these were just foolish excuses that i grab to save me from my mean actions and greedy thoughts. But now it won’t ..!! The moment a negative thought bleak out,it will be first thoroughly analysed and catogarised in the above five roots.
I am glad God that i am made to realise such ugliness in me else it could have never been exposed and felt. He is awesome and beautiful that he is giving me a chance to beautify.
This disturbance in me is imbibing greater bliss, flowing love and gratitude in my life . I am thankful to Him for the sources of knowledge He has blessed me with and this lovely blissful disturbance thats improving me moment by moment.
Loads of love <3 <3
