The so called foolish master...!!!!!

                                                (only in her own blind eyes)

Since date , i wished for and was striving hard for every single being to follow me, my views, my thoughts, my ideas, my viewpoints and the most wretched and dismal thing ,i was so damn obsessed with this that though i was not at all involved anywhere in the scene..things happening around me did’nt bother me or pain me in any sense.. then to i was so keen and eager that i stepped forward again and again to give free advices..!! not at all a point of leadership or proud..!! ohh u r great.. so bold that even though u r not the victim..u just go ahead ..you r standing and saving the people around..and different people greeting and appreciating you ,your efforts in so many different way..... you in their hearts THE mother Teresa..!!! bullshit..!!! i struggled so hard to make every single girl a bitch and every single boy a dog.. who sits when i say ‘sit tommy’, who stands when i say ‘stand’, who runs when i say ‘run’ .. my desperation for making a dog of mine who agrees with whatever i order him was so deep , that i lost the importance of my words.. i just kept on giving my unwanted suggestions and not only giving them, even fighting hard to prove myself right .rather than living peacefully and be an observer , and just move on move on ..!!!

 The core reason... my habit , my ego satisfaction that i didn’t want human beings near me , instead dogs who just do as “the shubhangi sheel “orders them to do..!! why don’t  i realise that if you don’t have control over your ownself , your body, your thoughts..how can i even go to  the extent of ruling others..!!! it is so illogical and foolish., so lame of me to think of ..!!! strange..!!! .i have no power on my own body, own hands, breathing, how Can i expect others to live as i do..!! n one thing really very very true..!! everyone around thinks they are right..so as i...so as others whom i keep on forcing .. !!  neways to end up with .. i will now never try to impose things on others.. do this way... this is right..this is wrong.. see yourself first..every single person on this earth is right.. no one is wrong.. ,nothing is wrong... it is all HIS wish..i am observer. Stop pulling people..let them free ..let them fly the way they wish to..not the way i wish to.. i will now from this moment...  will always keep an eye on my inner self.. every being is born free,  to live free,  to walk freely, to fly freely ,to laugh freely, to talk freely, to do whatever they wish to , with their own right, own thoughts, own feelings....i am just no one to snatch their birthright ,their freedom from them. I am just no one to make them my little poor obedient dogs..!! they have the freedom .. i am no one to impose my viewpoints on them... just be an observer.. value others freedom, value your freedom.. neither you are born to suffer  nor they..  so just be happy.. be fine.. njoy life .. let people njoy their personal lifes.. be with them.. treat them like humans.. not dogs.. mind it dear not dogs.. not slaves n you the master.. be human ..!!! glad to see myself, my sucking attitude, a drop of insight visted today.. !!!